Te Recuerdo Hoy

gah, trying to write and well... I sux.

Best friend's next chp is rather choppy and will need a major rewrite before being posted. ,( SPOILER ALERT )

The F/G fic I started today (at work shhhhh...) has become an original and it feels to me like I'm coping someone's style and not using my own.

BTW do I even have a style? I think I once did...but I'm afraid I've lost it in the sea of writing Bio's or maybe I never did and I've always copied other peoples style and that is why my work is rather mediocre once it is past it's middle point?

EDIT: THANK YOU LAIN for updating now I can read instead of writing. I mean really people whose stories I fallow please update so I can use my very limited free time to read instead of attempting to write. HELLO unjealous and Xanthofile...and all you others!

"El wanted to be in Zin’s arms to feel his warmth. He liked how Zin held him; he would sometimes imagine that their bodies slowly melted together, the different tones of skin color mixing. El’s body sinking into Zin’s creating a new being, creating something that was nothing, but everything that was love."


What the hell was I drinking/smocking that night?

hahaha

So anyone remember The Black Choir?

I'm working on the next chp and to do so I have to read the whooooole thing over. Call me concided but it doesn't suck as much as I thought, but that is beside the point.

I had a character in this story called Elton, but everyone called him El.

El = He in spanish.

So as I read I keep reading El as He and then it makes no sense and I go back and see it says EL not HIM.

My brain is playing tricks on me!!

Call me a review...what ever, but I'm totally bummed by the lack of reviews on Best friends.

Best friends was updated.

Can you say finally? Hehe.

I have this in mind:

What happens when Gerard's boy toy falls in love with Bert?

A story where Gerard is an ass hole, Bert is well...as Bert as I can write him and the boytoy just gets in the way.

Next chp of reflections is absolutely kicking my ass. Forget that I have barely any time to write this chp had to go and be hard to write. So I was hoping to have it done today...doubt it will happen.

Life has gotten more complicated. Not in a bad way at all, but at least until June, I won't have much time for writing.

We decided not to switch Andres schools until next year. He only has until June fourth. SO I will be dropped off every morning at 7 am at my in laws so Andres can catch the bus to school. Then I wait for him there. On tutoring days we walk there and then we get picked up around 6. Of course then I must cook dinner and clean up.

I might take the laptop with me to the in laws, but I'll prob have no internet.

In other words next update... who knows.

Sorry, like I said hopefully life will settle down again. Then of course there is the hope that I can write at the in laws and post at night. Who knows?

Edit: We had a bbq today here at he house, we had areally nice time and once we were done there was a horrible thunder storm we had "wind gusts" of over 60 miles x hours.

It came out of nowhere we were picking up (it wasn't cold or too hot) the sky had some clouds, not really dark ones, when the sky lit up. It didn't even look like lightning just bright bright light. Next thing it's raining. We had to run to bring things in, huge water drops falling cold as hell in Miamis typical slanted almost horizontal manner. Freezing cold water. Rather scaring how strong the wind was. Still raining, still some thunder and lightning, but nothing, nothing like earlier. Right now it's just rain.

Finally I gave up and got a Ravelry(sp) account. I was tired of FO post that linked to their ravelry account or said they had more pictures there. Like myspace I don't really have anything there and it's mostly too look at other pics and stuff.

Anyone else think that Taylor Swift looks like a mouse? and not in the cute way?

Also I have 1800 words of Reflections next chp. I could be lazy and call it a chp but after what? 2-3 weeks with out update I thought you might want a chp were something actually happens. Right now it's about the dog and Gerard philosifiando (hey I wrote that in spanish, so don't tell me it's misspelled) about stuff. We need some action.

Things that need to happen either in this or the next two chps of the story:

-Meeting with Frank.
-Gerard gets officially offered the Job in LA
-Pencey and Ray go off on tour.
- Oh!! CHEATING

I've had a really hard time finishing the second part of "The Ray Fic" because the time frame decided to fuck with me. It has given me such a freaking hard time. This kiddos is what happens when you don't think about the time frame before starting a story, it will get mad at you and it will hunt you down.

I think I have it pretty figured out and I hope I don't have to go back and do anymore changes or cut anything else out because it doesn't fit.

-Ray and Gerard same age to save my sanity

-Gerard is 3 years older than Mikey and four than Frank.

-Gerard and Ray met when they were twelve

-Gerard came out to his family and Ray when he was 14

-The Carl incident happen when Mikey was 17, Mikey didn't date again until he was 18.

-Gerard and Frank meet when Frank is 17 and just out of high school.

-Gerard and Frank don't "see" each other(Gerard ignores Frank) until Frank is almost eighteen.

-They move in together 6 months after they officially start dating so around April

- When they are dating for 10 or so months Gerard asks Frank to "marry" him

- The vow exchange was outdoors so they were together for around a year and six months (Gah, I have to change Don's speech a bit). Frank is 19 and Gerard about 23 give or take a few months.

-Gerard was 24 when the accident happened, Frank obviously 20.

- Reflections begins six years after the accident so Frank is 25-26 and Gerard at the beginning just turned 30

- Bob is two years older than Emma and Emma is the same age as Frank.(see what I mean about the time frame? I'll leave this here for my own amusement) Bob obv. is one year older than Frank making him the same age as Mikey.

- Jeph is Frank's age.


Edit: Quick note, Matt is two years older than Gerard not that it matters much he is barely in any of the stories.

Edit again: Not that I think anyone will care but I won't change when Ray says Gerard didn't see Frank for a year after they met. Ray is thinking age wise not sure of the time frame. Frank was 17 when they met and 18 when they began dating even though it was only about a 4 month period.

I need to keep my mind of being irrational. There is really no other way to describe how I've been acting (I'm still mopping around, crying with out reason, not being able to sleep at night). So to keep busy I want a challenge.

Basically would you like me to write something for you? It can be anything from Fan-fic (preferably My Chem, but if you want something else just give me a clear picture) to original. You can use any of my original characters or the "personalities" of my Fan-fic character or hell tell me to make up a new character. Anything!

You can give me exactly what you want (Hell a whole page of it) or just a word, again ANYTHING. I want a challenge, something to keep me busy and maybe even frustrated (if I'm frustrated, I hopefully won't be mopey)

A few things:

- it might take awhile.

- Sometimes my characters are hard headed and won't do what I tell them too, but I'll still try to stay true to what you asked (example: Animals written for I belief my 300th reviewer of Profe.)

- It might take awhile.

Now I doubt more than 2 people will replay but in wishful thinking I'll say I'll write the first 3 challenges.

XD...Thanks

What do you consider a happy ending?

This question comes for several reasons:

a) The new challenge at mychemicaltest

b) When ever I think I've written a happy ending others concider it 'bittersweet'

c) I've promised happy endings on two of my fics and I'm just not to used to writing them (hey even Someday is a bit of bittersweet when you think how F/G relationship ends)

So what is a happy ending to you?

Edit: OMG Gerard marrying Britney? you know because the fic wasn't bad enough.

For those following my stories on Fp.com

I know it's been awhile since I updated anything new, but I have been editing Best Friends and re writing Profe. I don't know when something new will be updated, but know I haven't forgotten.

Profe has been updated. Hoepfully my grammar has improved. There are a lot of changes to Uriel's POV but I'd say close to zero for  Luciano's.

As for Reflections, god I am so lazy, I don't feel like typing up what I have written in the notebook, but I'll get to it eventually. Probably not today since it's been really busy. I've never had such a busy Christmas Eve, hell week before Christmas. Granted I got almost everything done before 11 this morning which gave me time to update Profe, but in like 30 min I have put Andres in the shower, and figure out what to wear.

If I don't update Reflections by New Years, make sure to give me a good kick.

Happy holidays XD

My baby is sick, and like always I get all worried and go into "mother hen" mode which annoys the hell out of James. But I don't care, Andres is sick and he looks so sad.


I got my laptop back "yay" but the f-uped the charger, they fixed everything and fudged the charger isn't it wonderful? Now it'll take 4-6 business days until they mail me a new one. Grrr...

I might have mentioned it before but I've been working on Hiding From Love so if anyone is interested there should be an update soon for that.

Profe will be erased/ brought down, what ever the right word/s is as soon as I get my laptop back. It needs a re write I can't continue it while it's this horrible.

In a perfect world I'd have Reflection's next chp finished, of course I don't. I'll do my best to finish it by noon tomorrow. Again in a perfect world life would be terribly borring.

Bestfriends will be updated tomorrow or by 11 tonight.

Forever is hunting me. We might have another one shot called "Eternity" from shall we call it the same "universe" from Ray's POV. I don't want to call it a sequel or say I'm continueing the story, it would be more like a companion piece. Again I don't know there might be more your input on this will be greatly apreaciated. I've been researching mental illness trying to find one that will fit Mikey and see if I'm willing to continue or just let it die. Again INPUT please.

Question Should I continue to post "Hiding from Love"? Is anyone interested in this littering their friends page or should I just write it for myself? odds are no one will answer this and when ever I write the chp I will just post it. But if you don't want to see it anymore let me know.

mmmmmmmmmmmmmm.... what else, what else.

Kids annoy me (Had a school thing with Andres today, too many kids too much noise)

Andres' sensei still very hot.

And this is me procrastinating, because I have no clue how to continue reflections because I've arrived to the middle and now Ihave to get to the end and gosh that always sucks.

Edit: Anyone interested in beta reading Eternity, if I ever finish it?

post title is on crack

Animals (Phillip one shot) was posted finally. I had a hard time getting Nick and Phillip to stop having sex in random places and actually develop a plot but I seem to have done it (at least the reviewers say they liked the ending and that it was sad)

Now this is what I should update next when it comes to original fics


1. Profe (about half way done with Luciano's POV)
2. Best Friends (0% done for next chp)
3. Guilty Entries and or Letters (yeah I'm not even going here until I finish Profe's next chp)
4. Untitled
5. Clean Start
6. Handbook
7. Ares

For MCR fanfics.

I finish the chp for Reflections today, which meanst I send it late to my beta and I probably won't have it up by tomorrow. Hiding from Love received 0 comments, but I like the story and I will finish it. I haven't started the next chp.

I'll try to stick by it and hopefully this way I'll finish one of my stories.

I'm going to update Reflections and Photographs every Friday on slowbirds The chp will be finish on Wen. and sent to my beta who should have it back to me by Friday.

Then on Saturdays I will update Hiding From Love also on slowbirds and on my journal. The chps for this story should be finished by thursdays and when I have I beta for it I can email it to her on that day.

Edit 9/19/07 I'm changing original's updates to Wednesday
I will try and update an original story on every Monday these will be update at diebyownhands fiction press account I will work on one original every week.

This is my priority list for originals, if you'd like to bump up a story comment here or pm at fp.com, I'll see what I can do. Please don't review with just "I was wondering when you'll update this"

1. Profe
2. Best Friends
3. Guilty Entries and or Letters
4. Untitled
5.Clean Start
6. Handbook
7. Ares

This is not the order I will update this stories, but what I want to finish first. Hopefully this will get me back on track and I'll be able to finish some stories. Next Monday I should be updating the one shot for my 300th reviewer in Profe.

Profe has been updated!

Does anyone know of a good son for a Mother/Son dance? 

For a wedding were the mom is getting merried, sort of a reverse Bride/father of the Bride thing.

Marsha Fairton No real meaning to names   Nick names: N/A	Andrea Diaz No real meaning to names   Nick names: N/A
General	General
Age: 20   Birthdates: March 7, 1986   Zodiac sign: Pisces   Sexual Orientation: straight   Occupation: N/A   Education:  Some College   Language: English, French,   American   Divorced	Age: 15   Birthdates: July , 17, 1991   Zodiac sign: Cancer   Sexual Orientation: Straight   Occupation: Student   Education:  High school, sophomore   Language: English   Hispanic   Not Married
Family	Family
Parents: Divorced Mother:  Sonya Fairton, 40 Father:  Ran off with secretary he is never mentioned   Siblings: Jack Fairton, 19   Other: Aunt, Ms. Fairton, 45; Uncle Jack Fairton, 50; Ex-husband, Uriel Wheaver,20; Daughter, Victoria M. Wheaver,1.   Friends: Jake Stonhart, 21	Parents: Together Mother: Not mentioned Father: Not mentioned   Siblings: N/A   Other: N/A   Friends: Luciano,16; Carlos, 16; Robert (Rob, Robbie), 16; Dave, 17;  Henry, 15; (has other friends but not mentioned in story)
Physical	Physical
Eyes: Blue   Hair: Blond, long curls   Skin: White, light tan   Height: 5’4”   Weight: 100lbs	Eyes: Dark Brown   Hair: Dark Brown, straight, long till waist   Skin: Pale   Height: 5’ 5”   Weight: 115lbs
Extra	Extra
Pets: None   Favorite Food: N/A   Favorite Alcoholic Drink: Apple Martini   Cigarettes: Doesn’t smoke   Drugs: Marihuana, when younger   Favorite Book: Devil Wears Prada   Music: Pop music	Pets: Black cat, named Lucky   Favorite Food: Cream of Broccoli   Favorite Alcoholic Drink: Not old enough to drink.   Cigarettes: Doesn’t smoke   Drugs: None   Favorite Book: Heart of Darkness   Music: Alternative, Rock